Notes regarding this story:
This story was inspired by Larrkin's wonderful 'Attention Deserved' series, of which I am a devoted fan. As other fans will recall, those stories are an AU, based on the idea that Aragorn stayed in Minas Tirith somewhat longer than he did in Tolkien's canon, and that he, as 'Thorongil', developed a close relationship with a then four-year-old Boromir. When they met again in Rivendell, Boromir recognised and remembered Aragorn, and that closeness was rekindled.
After Larrk first started posting her stories, I asked if she had any plans to write the tale of Aragorn and little Boromir, as I was longing to read it. She replied that she didn't, and so it came about that I started writing it myself, with Larrk's very gracious permission. Needless to say, I've tried very hard in writing this to stay true to Larrk's vision of the characters, and the story itself. I hope I've done it justice. :)
And for anyone who needs to re-read Larrk's stories and refresh their memory, they are all up on her page, here:
Thanks to:
Hadra – thank you for all the help, for booting me along when I got stuck, and for letting me bounce so many ideas off you.
Shotboxer – thank you for your careful editing, for catching my many errors, and for insisting that I get rid of all those unnecessary dashes. <g>
Laura – thank you for being so kind as to offer this story a home!
And finally, an extra-special thank you to Larrk, for being so very generous as to let me play in her sandbox, and so very encouraging while I was writing this. I'm truly honoured that you'd accept my story as the 'official' prequel to your wonderful AU. Your stories have given me so much enjoyment and inspiration, and I only hope that I've managed to give some of that back with this tale.
So, without further ado, my take on the story of Aragorn and little Boromir. I hope you enjoy it.
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Warning: This story
contains spanking, both of Boromir as a child, and (through flashbacks) of
Aragorn as a child. If this offends you, hit the back button now.
Little Fledgling
Chapter 4
By Kat
The next morning, Aragorn rose early once again, and went briefly to
the stables to check on Tior before heading over to the practice grounds for
Boromir's lesson. This time he was early, and he had a few minutes to speak to
Boromir before the lesson began, which seemed to please the little boy to no
end. He had clearly recovered his energy, and he spent most of their
conversation bouncing on his toes, obviously eager for his lesson to get
started.
Taracar finally called his pupils to attention, and Boromir waved
happily to Aragorn as he bounded away to his place. Aragorn waved back, then
leaned against the wall to watch as the lesson began, keeping a fond eye on
Boromir's efforts.
He had been unable to resist looking in on the child last night, as he
left the Steward's House after eating with Ecthelion. Boromir had been fast
asleep, and Aragorn had simply stood by the bed for several minutes, smiling
down at the peaceful little face, watching the slow rise and fall of the boy's
breathing. He was growing more accustomed to these surges of protectiveness
now, but the one he'd felt then had nearly brought tears to his eyes. Boromir
had been beautiful in sleep, grave and innocent and utterly peaceful, and
Aragorn had wanted nothing more than to keep his fledgling safe from harm,
always. The thought of leaving Gondor – something he knew would eventually be inevitable
– had never grieved him more.
Give to him all you may,
while you may, he had repeated to himself again, like a mantra. And as he had slipped
from the room, leaving Boromir still sleeping soundly, he had promised himself
once again that he would do so.
And so I will, he thought again
now, watching as Boromir brandished his little sword in front of him, trying
out the new move Taracar was teaching them. The child stumbled a little, then
quickly regained his balance and tried again, his brow creasing in
concentration. After a few more attempts, he was definitely getting the idea,
and by the time Taracar had worked his way around to him, only a few gentle
corrections were required before the man nodded his approval and moved on.
Boromir paused to glance hopefully over at Aragorn, and was met with a warm
smile and another approving nod. Beaming, the little boy went back to his
practice.
The rest of the lesson proceeded on a fairly even keel, although
Aragorn noticed what seemed to be a small epidemic of distraction among some of
the other children. Two of the older boys finally ended up being scolded by
Taracar for larking about and not paying attention, and things quietened down
after that. However, it seemed there had been too much rowdiness today for
Taracar's liking, and the usual treat of free sparring at the end of the class
was withheld, to the obvious dismay of his pupils. The two boys who had been
reprimanded looked suitably ashamed of themselves, and Boromir looked
positively mournful. Once the class had been dismissed – with some firm
encouragement from Taracar to behave better tomorrow – he came trotting over to
Aragorn with quite a bit less bounce than he'd had at the start of the lesson.
"No sparring," he said with a sigh, looking up at Aragorn
with unhappy eyes.
"Not today," Aragorn said, patting his shoulder in sympathy.
"But do not look so sad, little one. You paid attention well today, so it
was no fault of yours. And I am sure you will be allowed to spar again
tomorrow."
"I hope so," Boromir said dolefully. "But I wanted to
spar today." He sighed, then
brightened again, a hopeful light dawning in his eyes. "Thorongil, could we spar? Like we did before? And could
you teach me some more?"
"I am sorry, little one, but I cannot today," Aragorn said
gently, hating to disappoint the child further. "There is a meeting that I
must attend this afternoon, and I am not sure how long it will run."
Boromir's face fell. "So . . . I won't see you at all today?"
he asked plaintively, his distress at that thought obvious.
"Nay, you will see me," Aragorn quickly assured him. "I
will come when the meeting is over, and we will have some time together before
supper, although I am not sure how much. Would that I could spend all afternoon
with you, but I have duties that I must do, my fledgling. You understand that,
do you not?"
Boromir nodded, although his crestfallen expression did not change.
"Yes, Thorongil," he said quietly.
"Good lad." Aragorn gave him a kind smile, nodding his
approval. "We will still have time together, little one. And tomorrow,
after your lessons, we will have another lesson of our own. All right?"
Boromir nodded again, looking a little happier, and Aragorn smiled and
held out his hand. "Good. Now, come, we must get you to your tutor. I do
not want you to be late for your lessons."
Boromir looked crestfallen all over again at the mention of lessons,
but he did not protest, merely taking Aragorn's hand with a sigh and trotting
quietly beside him as they made their way out of the practice grounds. Aragorn
wondered at the child's moodiness, but he did not press him to talk, so the
journey was a silent one as they walked along to the tunnel, then back up to
the seventh level and across to the Steward's House.
With a stubbornness that Aragorn was beginning to learn was quite
typical of his little charge, Boromir remained silent as they walked up the
stairs to the study where he had his lessons, although his small face became
even more downcast as Aragorn opened the door. He glanced inside at his tutor,
then turned a gaze of pure misery on Aragorn, who knelt down in front of him.
"There now, little fledgling," he said, smoothing the child's
hair. "It is not as bad as all that. I will see you for supper. And
perhaps this afternoon, you could visit with your mother. I am sure she would
like to see you."
Boromir bit his lip. "I wasn't allowed to see her this
morning," he said softly. "Not even to say good morning. Ivoren said
she was very, very tired and that she was sleeping."
Aragorn did not miss the slight emphasis Boromir put on 'Ivoren said'.
From what he understood, the boy had generally been told that his mother was
'tired' rather than ill, no doubt in an attempt to stop him from fretting over
her. It seemed, though, that his sharp little fledgling was not accepting that
euphemism so readily anymore, if indeed he ever had.
"I am sorry to hear that, little one," he said gently.
"But perhaps you will be able to visit her this afternoon. And if she is
still too tired, then perhaps Ivoren will take you for a walk."
"I'd rather walk with you," Boromir said, his lower lip
protruding into a sudden pout.
Aragorn sighed inwardly; it seemed there would be no placating Boromir
today. Small children, he reminded himself, did not tend to take well to
concepts such as 'later' or 'tomorrow'. He recalled throwing a fair few
tantrums himself as a child over words like that. And given how disappointing
Boromir's day had already been, he supposed he should not be surprised that the
boy was becoming sulky.
"I would like to walk with you too, my fledgling," he said,
making sure to keep his voice gentle and patient. "If we have time before
supper, we can go for a walk then, if you would like – or perhaps after, if you
are not too tired. But for now, you must attend your lessons, and I must attend
my meeting. We both have our duties to do, and we must see them done before we
can play." He reached out to tilt Boromir's chin up, looking the boy in
the eyes. "Do you understand that, little one?"
Boromir eyed him unhappily for a long moment, but finally he nodded,
although the pout did not fully leave his face. "Yes, Thorongil."
"Good." Aragorn tapped the boy's nose with a finger, offering
a kind smile. "Now, little fledgling, off you go to your duty. Your tutor
is waiting for you. Be good for him, and I will see you this afternoon."
He turned Boromir by the shoulders and gave him a little push, just as
he had yesterday – although in deference to the boy's moodiness, he omitted the
swat this time. Boromir went obediently, throwing a mournful look over his
shoulder, and Aragorn gave him an encouraging smile before shutting the door.
He went back downstairs in search of the boy's nursemaid, and found her
tidying Boromir's chamber. He stopped only briefly, to tell her that he would
be back after the council meeting, but that she would have Boromir to entertain
for most of the afternoon, and then continued on his way. He still had two
hours before the meeting, and he wanted to visit the practice grounds again, this
time for some practice of his own. With his injury, he had not had much chance
to drill lately, and he knew he could not afford to get out of condition.
He found several of his men in the practice arena, including Beredil
and a young lieutenant named Damrod – a clever, dependable man whom Aragorn had
great regard for. They were sparring together when he arrived, and he stood on
the sidelines to watch their bout, which ended with Beredil as the victor.
Match over, they withdrew from the arena and came to stand with him, greeting
him cheerfully.
"You have been to the healers, I see, Captain," Beredil
remarked, gesturing towards Aragorn's shoulder, now free of its sling.
Aragorn nodded. "Aye, 'tis as good as new. And I am most grateful
to be free of the sling; it was becoming very tiresome to only have the use of
one arm."
"Better one arm than one leg, sir," Damrod said, his wry tone
telling Aragorn that he had had experience with such a handicap.
"Aye, I remember that," Beredil said with a laugh, confirming
Aragorn's suspicions. "One of his first skirmishes, and he broke his
leg," he went on to explain, grinning at Damrod. "I would swear to
this day he was more angry than hurt. The healers had to threaten him with dire
consequences to get him to rest it. 'Tis a wonder that it healed at all, given
how little regard he had for his injury."
"It healed," Damrod replied calmly, quite unfazed by
Beredil's teasing. "And I obeyed the healers' instructions as much as was
necessary."
"As much as it suited you, you mean," Beredil returned
cheerfully. Damrod's only reply was a smirk, and Beredil grinned and clapped
him on the shoulder, then turned back to Aragorn.
"Have you come to spar, Captain?" he asked. "I would be
happy to match you, if you need a partner."
"I, too, Captain," Damrod put in. "We can turn about, if
it suits you."
"Aye, I would appreciate it," Aragorn said. "I have not
had much chance to drill or to spar lately, and I could use it. I will be sat
in a council meeting all this afternoon, so I had best get my exercise
now."
"Indeed so, sir," Beredil said. "And if you are to be in
council all afternoon, we had best get to it! Damrod, will you go first?"
"Nay, you go," Damrod replied easily. "I will wait this
one out, and take the match when you tire."
Beredil nodded agreeably, and waited politely for Aragorn to precede
him out into the arena. They sparred in turnabout fashion, with Aragorn taking
on first Beredil, then Damrod, until he finally had to take his leave. He
thanked the two lieutenants for the matches, leaving them to take up their own
match again, and left the practice grounds to return to his quarters,
conveniently located among the guest rooms on the seventh level. He took time
to quickly wash and change his clothes, then headed for the Court, the
conference chambers therein, and the council meeting.
~*~*~*~
Valar help me, Aragorn thought
several hours later, as he pushed his chair back from the conference table. I am more exhausted from these hours of
sitting than I would be from any battle!
The various topics of discussion – or more correctly, argument – had
finally been put to rest for the day, and the council meeting had drawn to a
close, much to Aragorn's relief. He could see that relief echoed in the faces
of the others who were present; they all looked tired, and Ecthelion himself
looked grimly exhausted. Aragorn moved to his side as the others began to file
towards the doors, regarding him with concern.
"Are you well, my lord?" he asked, keeping his voice low.
"Aye, I am all right," Ecthelion replied, giving him a nod
and a tired smile. "Old men should not be forced to sit so long around the
conference table; it wearies them. But I will go and rest now, and perhaps
drink a cup of wine. Or two."
"Aye, my lord," Aragorn agreed wryly. "I feel much the
same myself."
"Ah, but you are not an old man, Thorongil," Ecthelion said
with a chuckle. "You must surely have energy to spare, after sitting at
your ease for these past hours."
Aragorn grinned, seeing the twinkle in the Steward's eye. "I had
better hope so, my lord," he replied. "For I promised your grandson I
would visit him after the meeting was over, and I am sure he will not have run out of energy yet."
"Indeed he will not," Ecthelion agreed. "You may have to
wait for your wine until he has run himself ragged."
"Likely himself and me as well," Aragorn said with a laugh,
and Ecthelion smiled in return, waving a hand at the door.
"Go, lest he becomes impatient and starts finding mischief,"
he said, getting carefully to his feet. "I will retire to my chair and my
wine, and I wish you luck."
Aragorn chuckled. "I may well need it, my lord," he replied.
Smiling, he bowed to Ecthelion and headed for the door, slipping out into the
main hall and moving swiftly to the exit.
Outside, he made his way across to the Steward's House, walking with
his usual long stride and enjoying the feel of the late afternoon sun on his
face. He would take Boromir out for a walk, he decided, as he neared his
destination. The sun was pleasant, and it was still over an hour from the time
when Boromir usually had his evening meal. There was plenty of time for a
stroll in the fresh air, and perhaps spending some time outside would improve
the child's mood.
Of course, he may have
cheered up on his own by now, Aragorn thought, hopefully. He had a disappointing morning; it was not surprising that he was out
of temper, but with luck he has had a better time this afternoon. Surely such a
little one cannot remain sullen for too long.
He felt a moment of misgiving with that thought, recalling that he, as
a child, had been quite capable of sulking for days on end if he thought he had
reason. He would have to hope, he thought wryly as he entered the Steward's
House, that Boromir was not as stubborn as he had been.
Unfortunately, that hope was dashed as soon as he entered Boromir's
chamber. Indeed, it was dashed in an even more spectacular way than he had
feared, because not only was Boromir not in a good temper, he was not present
at all. There was only Ivoren, sitting on the window seat, anxiously twisting a
fold of her skirt between her hands. She sprang to her feet when Aragorn came
in, and his heart sank when he saw the look on her face.
Surely not, he thought in
disbelief. Surely Boromir would not have dared.
"Do not tell me he has
run off again," he said grimly, and Ivoren blanched at his tone.
"I wish I did not have to, my lord," she said, her distress
obvious. "I left him in his chamber for no longer than fifteen minutes,
and when I came back he had gone. I sent one of the guards to look for him, but
he could not find him, not with an hour and more of searching. I'm so sorry, my
lord!"
Aragorn shook his head, holding up a hand. "Nay, mistress, do not
apologise. He is of an age where you should not need to watch him at every
moment. He knows he is not to wander away alone; the disobedience is his. Fear
not; I will find him – and when I do, I will deal with his behaviour."
Ivoren nodded, although she still looked troubled. "Wherever he
is, my lord, he is keeping himself out of sight. Andor, the guardsman, took
another man with him and searched until they had to go on duty, and they found
no trace of him. I would guess, my lord, that he is hiding somewhere. He has
not been in a good temper today."
"So I witnessed," Aragorn said wryly. "And I, too, would
guess that he is hiding. I will search anyway. If I have not found him ere it
grows dark, then I may have to rethink matters."
"He has never once stayed out past dark, my lord," Ivoren
said. "We have not often been able to find him when he does this, but he
has always returned home before nightfall."
"Aye, when he grows hungry, no doubt," Aragorn remarked
dryly. "That is a comfort, at least. Nevertheless, I will look for him. If
he comes back while I am gone, I pray you, keep him with you. I will want to
speak to him when I return."
"Yes, my lord," Ivoren agreed, giving him a quick curtsey.
Aragorn nodded politely in return, then headed back out the door, striding
grimly down the corridor. He was determined to find his wayward charge – and to
put a stop, once and for all, to this unfortunate habit of truancy.
~*~*~*~
An hour of searching had turned up nothing.
Aragorn had enlisted help in the end; he had met Damrod as he emerged
from the tunnel onto the sixth level, and after they had exchanged greetings
and Aragorn wryly explained where he was going in such a hurry, the young
lieutenant had offered to help him search for Boromir. Aragorn had gratefully
agreed, and had left Damrod to search the sixth level while he himself went
down to the fifth. Now, after an hour of fruitless searching, he could only
hope that Damrod's luck might have been better than his.
They had agreed to meet up again where they had parted, just inside the
sixth gate, and Aragorn headed that way now. He kept an eye out for Boromir as
he walked, although he was not holding out much hope of finding the boy.
Wherever Boromir was, he was staying out of sight – either that, or he had gone
even further down into the City, in which case Aragorn was going to be even
more displeased than he already was.
He walked back through the sixth gate and saw Damrod waiting for him;
the younger man raised a hand in greeting and walked over, shaking his head in
response to Aragorn's questioning look.
"Nothing, sir," he said, as he came to a stop in front of
Aragorn. "I have not seen hide nor hair of him. If he is on this level, he
is hiding himself well today."
"Aye, that he is," Aragorn agreed with a sigh. "And it
is growing late, now." He glanced up at the sky, noting how low the sun
was, and frowned. "His nurse said that he has never stayed out past dark,
but sunset is not long away."
"I am sure that nothing has happened to him, sir," Damrod
said, and Aragorn could tell that he was trying to be reassuring. "Most
likely he has just got caught up in whatever he is doing – or he is worried
about the consequences when he does come home. None in this City would dare
harm the Steward's grandson."
Aragorn nodded, although the frown did not leave his face. Damrod had a
point, but the fact remained that Boromir was only four years old – and only
just four, at that. Small children could get into all sorts of trouble if left
to their own devices for too long, as Aragorn remembered well from his own
experiences. Boromir had already stayed away longer than usual, and while
Aragorn knew that Damrod was probably right about the likely reasons for that,
he still could not help being worried by the boy's continued absence. He too
doubted that anyone in Minas Tirith would harm Boromir, but that did not rule
out the possibility of accidents.
"I suppose we can be comforted that he cannot get lost, at
least," he said after a moment, trying to reassure himself. "And even
if he might slip through the internal gates unnoticed, he could not possibly
make it out of the City."
"Nay, the guards would spot him at once," Damrod agreed.
"My guess would be that he is hiding somewhere, sir, likely worried about
the trouble he will be in when he goes home."
"Aye. Either that, or he has sneaked home while we have been
occupied in looking for him," Aragorn said wryly, but Damrod shook his
head.
"Andor is on the gate this evening, sir," he said.
"Young Boromir would not get past him unseen, and he would have sent
someone to find you."
Aragorn nodded, recalling Boromir's comment about how he did not risk
trying to sneak past the guards when Andor was on duty. "Aye, Boromir
mentioned Andor," he said. "It seems he is known for his powers of
observation."
"Not much gets past him, sir," Damrod said, giving him a
small smile. "And he is well aware of the young lord's penchant for
wandering. Indeed, that could be why the lad has stayed out so long
today," he added thoughtfully. "With Andor on duty, Boromir must know
he will be caught if he attempts to sneak back through the gate."
"True enough," Aragorn agreed. "Although at this point,
he must know he will be caught anyway. He has been missing all afternoon; he
can hardly expect not to be questioned about it."
"With all due respect, Captain, he needs more than to be
questioned about it," Damrod said, rather grimly. "If I may say it,
young Boromir needs a firmer hand than he has been getting. And he is testing
you, sir."
Aragorn did not bother to ask how Damrod had come by all the
information he seemed to have. Beredil had made several comments before now
about the younger lieutenant's budding spy network. "Damrod always has his
ear to the ground," he had said, and Aragorn had found it to be true.
Damrod always seemed to know what was
going on, although he was usually unfailingly discreet about it.
"I had come to much the same conclusion," he said, nodding
slowly. "He wants my attention, it seems, and he knows this is a good way
to get it. I think perhaps he was feeling neglected today."
"It would not be the first time," Damrod said flatly, then
shot Aragorn a quick, apologetic glance. "Pardon, sir; I speak out of
turn."
"Nay, you speak the truth," Aragorn replied, waving away the
apology. "He has not been getting enough attention of late; that much is
obvious. He wanted mine today, and so he sought it in the most effective way he
knows. Well, he will have it, and plenty of it. Believe me, Lieutenant, I will
be having a very long talk with that little boy when I catch up with him."
Damrod nodded, the hint of a smirk flashing briefly across his face
before he became serious again. "It would not go amiss, Captain."
"Indeed not, it seems," Aragorn said dryly. "He is
testing me, you say, and I agree. It is a test I shall not fail."
He sighed then, glancing once more towards the sun, which was dipping
ever lower in the sky. "But first I must find him, and that is proving
more difficult than I had anticipated."
"It often does," Damrod said wryly, casting his own glance
towards the horizon before turning back to Aragorn. "Captain, if I may –
as long as he is hiding himself, I have my doubts that we will be able to find
him. He has proven in the past to be quite adept at staying out of sight until
he is ready to be seen. But I do not think he would dare stay out for long
after sunset, and that is not far away. If I might suggest it, perhaps it would
be best if you returned to the Citadel to wait for him. I cannot see him
staying away much longer, and there is not much sense in you combing the City
for him while he creeps home of his own accord."
Aragorn was silent for a moment, considering. He knew Damrod was right
– if Boromir was hiding, as seemed to be the case, he could be in any one of a
hundred places in the City, and it was unlikely that they would be able to find
him unless he wanted to be found. But it was also unlikely that such a young
child would stay out long after dark, no matter how frightened he might be of
the consequences of his disobedience. Boromir would no doubt be tired and
hungry by now, and starting to think longingly of home. Eventually, Aragorn was
sure, that longing would outweigh any fear.
However, that did not stop him from being worried about the child now.
"I too doubt he will stay out long after dark," he said
finally, glancing at Damrod. "At the very least, he will be getting hungry
by now. But I will admit, the fact that he has already stayed away longer than
usual concerns me. I would feel better, I think, if I were searching."
"With your leave, Captain, I can continue to search," Damrod
suggested. "That will leave you free to wait for him – and to ensure he
does not promptly hide himself again once he gets home," he added wryly.
"If I find him before he goes home by himself, then I will bring him straight
to you."
Aragorn hesitated a moment longer, then finally nodded. It would
probably make more sense for him to go and wait for Boromir, rather than
searching for him further. His talk with the child should not be put off, not
after such behaviour, and at this point he would probably "find"
Boromir more quickly if he simply waited for the boy to give up and come home.
And when he does, he thought
grimly, we will have a discussion that
will leave him sleeping on his stomach tonight!
"You speak wisely, Lieutenant," he said. "Very well. I
shall go back up the hill, and wait for our young truant to return. Hopefully
he will soon give up being stubborn."
"There is only so much stubbornness that can fit into such a small
package, sir," Damrod said, and Aragorn smiled.
"Perhaps so, but Boromir has it in full measure," he said
wryly. He reached out to briefly grasp the other man's arm. "My thanks for
your help, Damrod."
"No thanks needed, Captain," Damrod replied. "With your
leave, I will search for an hour after sunset, then I will come back up myself.
If he has not returned by then, I will fetch others and we can all continue
searching. But truly, sir, I do not think it will come to that. Young Boromir
knows his way around, and he cannot get lost, nor can he make his way out of
the City. When he is ready, he will come home."
Aragorn nodded, clapped Damrod on the shoulder in thanks, and then they
parted, Damrod going through the gate and down to the fifth level to continue
his search, while Aragorn headed for the tunnel that led to the Citadel. He
strode quickly up the lamplit slope and through the seventh gate, stopping
there briefly to speak to the guards on duty. As Damrod had said, one of them
was indeed the infamous Andor, a tall, keen-eyed man whose face reminded Aragorn
of a falcon's. It fit well, he thought, with the man's rumoured powers of
observation.
Andor greeted him with a polite bow, and nodded gravely in response to
Aragorn's request that he keep an eye out for Boromir, saying rather grimly
that he would send the boy straight home when he finally appeared. Aragorn
nodded his thanks, thought for a moment, then added another request – that
Andor also send someone to notify Ivoren when Boromir returned. He knew she was
concerned for her little charge, and he did not want her to worry needlessly,
if it happened that she wasn't waiting there with him when Boromir came home.
Andor readily agreed, his solemn expression softening a little at the
mention of Ivoren's name. Seeing it, Aragorn felt a moment of curiosity, and
found himself wondering if perhaps there was something between them. A moment
later he thought wryly that if he really wanted to know, he probably ought to
ask Damrod.
Pulling his thoughts back to the matter at hand, he thanked Andor again
for his help and continued on to the Steward's House, striding in through the
main door and down the hall to Boromir's chamber. He found Ivoren inside,
lighting the lamps, and explained to her that he had come back to wait for
Boromir to return, while Damrod was still searching. Although she looked rather
anxious, she too assured Aragorn that Boromir had always returned safely from
his unauthorised excursions, and that they had often been unable to find him
until he wanted to be found.
"We gave up asking him where he hides, my lord," she told
Aragorn with a sigh. "He would tell us and then immediately find a new
place to go where he could not be found. There are so many places a little one
can hide in the City, and he is very clever at staying out of sight when he
wants to."
"He is a sight too clever for his own good," Aragorn replied
dryly, and she gave him a small smile and nodded.
"I will leave you to wait then, my lord, and to speak with him
when he comes home," she said. "I will be nearby; you only need call
for me if you need me."
Aragorn thanked her, and she gave him a quick curtsey before hurrying
out of the room, leaving him to settle himself on the window seat and wait for
Boromir.
The minutes passed, and he tried to reassure himself, to quell the
nagging concern he could not help but feel for the boy. He knew, logically,
that Damrod and Ivoren were probably entirely correct in their reassurances –
after all, Boromir had done this disappearing act many times before, and he had
always come home safely. Nevertheless, Aragorn found that the worry did not
leave him, and he knew that it would not until Boromir was safely home.
Once he was, then Aragorn would see about making very sure that this behaviour was not repeated.
He supposed he should not really be surprised, all things considered.
Boromir had wanted his attention, that much was clear, and he had set about
trying to get it in the best way he knew how – a way that would also,
conveniently, test whether Aragorn intended to follow through with his promised
discipline. That was also not surprising; Boromir had been lacking discipline
for quite some time, and now that Aragorn had imposed some, the child would
feel the need to push at those new boundaries. He would want to test the water,
to make sure that Aragorn meant what he said, to see if there might be some way
around these new restrictions. All children did it; Aragorn himself had been no
different, even with long-established rules. But Elrond had pulled him up
sharply every time, and now Aragorn intended to do the same for Boromir. His
little fledgling needed love and discipline in equal measure, and for as long
as it was in his power to do so, Aragorn intended to see that he had them.
He wanted my attention, and
he will have it, he thought determinedly. And he
may test the water all he likes, but he will find it uncomfortably hot.
Newly resolved, he continued to wait, although as the minutes passed,
he could not keep from shooting glances at the window and the darkening sky
beyond. The sun had fully set now, and yet there was still no sign of his
wayward charge. Surely Boromir would not dare stay out much longer? The boy was
barely four years old. No matter how frightened he might be of punishment, he
must know he could not hide forever. At the very least, he had to be hungry by
now!
Unless something has happened to him, Aragorn thought
anxiously, before he could stop himself. He
is so young – even if none would harm him, he could still have had an accident.
What if he is hurt? He may not be able
to come home!
The thought was not a pleasant one, and Aragorn frowned darkly, his
worry suddenly increasing tenfold. He found himself longing to get up and pace,
or even better, to go and join Damrod once again in searching for the boy. It
had not yet been an hour since sunset – in truth, it had probably only been
about twenty minutes – but he was finding it increasingly difficult to wait.
Twenty minutes after that, he was finding it even more difficult – and
indeed, he might well have simply given up waiting at that point and gone out
to join Damrod in his search, if there had not suddenly come the sound of soft,
hesitant footsteps outside the door.
He knew at once that it was Boromir, but he was unprepared for the
sheer depth of relief he felt, knowing that the child was safe. It still seemed
incredible to him, how quickly Boromir had found a place in his heart, but he
could not argue with his feelings. He loved the boy, just as much as if Boromir
had been his own child, and he could only be deeply grateful that his little
fledgling was safely home.
Now, he thought wryly, he just had to make sure his relief did not
interfere with his intention to impart some very well-deserved discipline.
With that in mind, he schooled his features to sternness, just as the
door was slowly pushed open and Boromir slipped inside. The little boy looked
so miserable that Aragorn felt an immediate stab of sympathy for him, but he
forced himself to maintain his severe expression, and spoke before Boromir had
even seen him.
"Where have you been, Boromir?"
Boromir started, turning to stare at Aragorn with wide, frightened
eyes, suddenly looking like nothing so much as a startled faun. Those eyes
widened even more when he saw Aragorn's stern expression, and he took an
involuntary step backwards, appearing so terrified that for a moment, Aragorn
thought he might bolt. Not wanting to frighten the boy any more, he hurriedly
held out a hand, letting his voice gentle as he spoke again.
"Nay, little one, do not be afraid. No matter what you have done,
you have nothing to fear from me."
Boromir remained frozen, still staring at him uncertainly. He was
clearly far too distressed right now for any scolding, and so Aragorn held out
his arms, abandoning all trace of sternness for the moment, wanting first and
foremost to take away the fear he saw in the child's face. "Come here,
little fledgling," he said, his voice as gentle as he could make it.
Perhaps it was the use of the affectionate pet name, or perhaps the
offer of a hug was simply too tempting to resist, but Boromir hesitated only a
moment longer before barrelling across the room and flinging himself into
Aragorn's arms. Aragorn lifted the child onto his lap and held him close, and
Boromir wrapped both arms tightly around him, hiding his face against Aragorn's
chest. He was not crying, but Aragorn could feel him trembling, and he rubbed a
hand gently over the boy's quivering shoulders, trying to reassure him.
"Shhh, little fledgling," he murmured. "There now, it is
all right. There is no need to be so frightened. No matter what you have done,
you need never be afraid of me."
He stroked a hand over Boromir's hair, comforting, and after several
long moments the boy spoke, although he didn't lift his head.
"But I d-disobeyed you," he said in a small voice. "I
thought – I th-thought you'd be angry with me."
Aragorn shook his head, still smoothing the child's hair. He had been
angry – but most of that had been worry, and beyond that he had been angry with
the disobedience, not with Boromir himself. Given how distressed the child was,
it seemed important that he make the distinction clear.
"Nay, little one, I am not angry. I am not pleased with what you did, but I am not angry with you. There is a difference." A
thought occurred to him, and he added gently, "Is that why you stayed away
for so long today? Because you thought I would be angry with you?"
Boromir nodded against his chest, still not lifting his head. "I
w-wanted to come home – I really did – but I was afraid," he confessed,
mumbling the words into Aragorn's shirt.
"Afraid of me?" Aragorn asked softly, but this time Boromir
shook his head.
"Not of you – but I
th-thought you'd be angry with me. Father always g-gets angry when I'm bad, and
he s-says that he's ash-ashamed of me – and d-disappointed. And then he w-won't
talk to me." Boromir sniffled, and Aragorn could hear the hint of tears in
his voice as he finished miserably, "I th-thought you wouldn't want to
come and see me anymore if you were d-disappointed."
The distress in the child's voice was painful to hear, and Aragorn had
to close his eyes for a moment, fighting back a sudden surge of fury at
Denethor. How could the man be so insensitive to his little son's feelings?
That was no way to discipline a child, nor anyone for that matter. Discipline
should be done with love, with warmth and kindness, not with such cold
indifference. Denethor's method might teach Boromir to obey, but the lessons
the boy learned would not be the right ones.
They will be based in shame
and fear, not in love, Aragorn thought grimly. After all, where was the
absolution in such treatment? Where was the forgiveness, the peace that should
come when the discipline was over? There was none, and his poor little
fledgling simply had to suffer the shame Denethor imposed on him.
He opened his eyes and took a breath, forcibly pushing away the fury he
felt as reason reasserted itself. His anger could not help Boromir, no matter
how righteous he might feel it to be. He could not change Denethor's behaviour.
All he could do was try to counteract it with his own.
That will have to be enough, he thought. I must try to show Boromir that discipline
can be done with love – and that my affection for him will not wane because he
misbehaves.
He glanced down at the small fair head nestled against his chest,
fighting down another surge of anger at the boy's father. I will show him that my affection, at least, does not come at a price.
He pulled away a little then, reaching down to take Boromir's chin in
his hand, tilting the child's face up so that he could meet his eyes. Boromir
gazed back at him miserably, and Aragorn stroked a finger down his cheek,
looking gravely into the sad grey eyes.
"Boromir, hear me," he said, his voice quiet but firm.
"I am not ashamed of you, nor am I disappointed. You could not disappoint
me, little one. Aye, today you did something naughty, and we will speak of that
in a little while. But you are still my little fledgling, dear one. That will
not change. And my little fledgling could never
disappoint me, no matter how naughty he might be. Even if I must scold him,
even if I must discipline him, it makes no difference."
He cupped Boromir's cheek in his hand, almost overcome by the look of
desperate hope the child wore, and spoke softly but emphatically. "No
matter what you do, you still hold the same place in my heart, my little
fledgling. Do you understand?"
There was a long pause as Boromir gazed up at him, his expressive
little face showing mingled hope and disbelief. Aragorn did not look away,
simply giving Boromir time to absorb what he had said, and was rewarded when
the child finally nodded, slowly, his eyes suddenly bright with tears. A moment
later he threw himself back into Aragorn's arms, burrowing against his chest
and fisting both hands into the material of his coat. Aragorn could still feel
him trembling, but he thought that this time it was as much from relief as from
residual fright.
"Shhh, little one," he murmured, holding Boromir tightly
against him. "It is all right now. We will talk soon, but for now just sit
with me, and be comforted. I am here with you, and you are safe."
He stroked Boromir's hair again, then went back to rubbing the small
shoulders, and to his relief he soon felt the tension begin to leave the
child's body. The trembling finally stopped, but Boromir just cuddled more
closely against him, still keeping his face hidden against Aragorn's chest.
Aragorn did not rush him, waiting until he was sure that Boromir had recovered
from his fright before he finally spoke.
"Are you feeling better, my fledgling?" he asked, his voice
still very gentle.
There was a pause, and then Boromir nodded against his chest.
"Yes, Thorongil," he said quietly.
"Then, do you think you are ready to talk now?"
Another pause, longer this time, then another nod. "Yes."
"Good boy," Aragorn said approvingly, and after a moment
Boromir slowly lifted his head, looking up at him with earnest grey eyes.
"I'm sorry, Thorongil," he said softly.
Aragorn nodded, stroking a hand over the boy's hair again. "What
are you sorry for, little one?"
Boromir bit his lip. "I disobeyed you."
"Aye, you did," Aragorn agreed, his tone becoming more
serious. "Are you ready to talk about that now? And can you remember that
even if you are due a scolding, you are still my little fledgling, and you have
nothing to fear from me?"
Boromir hesitated for a moment, then nodded, lifting his chin in an
obvious attempt to be brave. He seemed to be over the worst of his fright now,
and Aragorn thought that it was safe to proceed. He would have to scold the child – aye, and deliver the promised
spanking, too. He would not be doing Boromir any favours by going back on his
word. The little boy had disobeyed, deliberately, and he had known full well
what the penalty would be. Aragorn had been quite clear in his warning, and
Boromir had chosen to ignore it.
He will have to learn that
there are consequences to his actions, he thought, steeling
himself to do what he must. He wanted my
attention, and now he will have it. And I will teach him, here and now, that
discipline can be done with love.
"Good boy," he said again now, and gave Boromir a last
reassuring pat before lifting him gently off his lap, placing him onto his feet
on the floor. Boromir gazed up at him sorrowfully, his grey eyes wide with
appeal, and Aragorn willed himself to remain firm. The little boy looked
nervous, but he was no longer unreasonably fearful, and now it was time for a
lesson to be learned.
"All right, my little fledgling," he said, allowing his voice
to become sterner again. "First, I would have you tell me where you went
today."
Boromir's chin quivered, but he answered bravely, if sheepishly.
"I went into the City."
Aragorn nodded in approval of the child's honesty, although his tone
remained firm. "That was disobedient, was it not?"
Boromir nodded, looking miserably down at the floor, and Aragorn
reached out to put a finger under the boy's chin, gently tilting his face up.
"Answer me, little one."
Boromir looked up at him pitifully, finally saying in a very small
voice, "Yes, Thorongil."
Aragorn nodded gravely. "Aye, indeed it was. You know you are not
allowed to go into the City by yourself. We have already had this discussion.
So why, my little fledgling, did you do it?"
Boromir quailed a little under the stern tone, looking up at Aragorn
with sorrowful eyes. "I wasn't going to," he pleaded. "Really I
wasn't. But – you didn't have time to talk to me – and I wasn't allowed to see
Mother – and Ivoren was busy – and I was lonely,"
he burst out, his eyes suddenly filling with tears again. "I just wanted
to go out and play, and Ivoren said she would take me to the gardens but she
didn't, and I waited for ages and ages, and I was bored! I'm sorry, Thorongil! I didn't mean to, I really
didn't!"
"I'm sorry, Ada! I
didn't mean to! I was just bored!"
The words echoed out of the past and into Aragorn's mind; his own
words, so similar to Boromir's, and spoken by his five year old self in a very
similar situation. Just yesterday he had been thinking about the time he had
wandered off into the woods and got lost, and Boromir's plaintive explanation
brought it to mind once again. It had indeed been boredom that had driven him
to disobey and go into the woods by himself, as he had sheepishly confessed to
Elrond when the elf lord had asked him to explain himself. Unfortunately, the
cry of 'I was bored' was not, in Elrond's opinion, a good reason to disobey
instructions, and he had informed Estel of that in no uncertain terms.
"That you were bored is
no excuse, Estel," Elrond had said.
"You know the rules. They have been explained to you many times
before." He leaned forward in his chair, regarding his disobedient son
sternly. "What is the rule about
going into the woods?"
Estel bit his lip, looking down at the floor. He could not truthfully
say that he did not know the rule about not going into the woods by himself. He
did know it, and Ada knew he knew it,
and he could not lie to Ada. But he also knew that answering that question
would seal his fate, and he simply could not bring himself to do it. He hung
his head, wishing with all his heart that he had not gone into the woods yesterday.
There was a pause, and then Elrond reached out, tilting his face up
with gentle fingers. "Estel," he
said, his voice softly warning.
"Answer me, my son."
Ada didn't sound angry, but Estel recognised the warning in his tone,
and he knew that he would only be in more trouble if he didn't obey. He met his
ada's stern gaze miserably, mumbling,
"I'm not allowed to go in the woods unless someone is with me."
"That is correct. And
was someone with you today?"
Estel shook his head, biting his lip.
"Estel. An answer,
please."
"No, Ada."
"Then you broke the
rules, did you not?"
"Yes, Ada."
"And what happens when
you break the rules, Estel?"
"I g-get spanked. Ada,
please don't," Estel begged, both hands going automatically to
cover his bottom. "Please don't
spank me! I'm sorry!"
"Sorry is not enough,
my son. Not this time," Elrond replied, his tone leaving no room for
argument. "You disobeyed, and now
you must face the consequences. Now, come, let us have this over with."
And so, Estel had found himself upended over his ada's knee, and he had
been soundly spanked . . . just as Boromir was about to be. No matter how
sympathetic Aragorn was to the child's plight, he could not allow himself to be
swayed by pleading, just as Elrond had not. Boromir needed this. Indeed, he had all but asked for it. It had not been
only boredom and loneliness that had driven the child to disobey. No, Boromir
had wanted attention, and he had wanted, whether consciously or not, to test
the new boundaries that had been set for him.
Now I need to show him that
I intend to enforce those boundaries, Aragorn thought firmly.
After all, he had been entirely clear in his warning, and that warning had been
ignored. That the child's discipline had been inconsistent up until now was no
excuse – indeed, that only made it all the more important that Aragorn not be inconsistent. Boromir had
disobeyed, and now it was up to Aragorn to introduce him to the promised
consequences. His little fledgling would simply have to realise that the rules
were here to stay.
"I am sorry that you were bored, my fledgling," he said now,
keeping his voice quiet but firm. "However, that is no excuse for
disobedience. You know that you are not allowed to go into the City by
yourself, and I warned you of what would happen if you did it again. Do you
remember what I said I would do, little one?"
Boromir obviously did remember, because his eyes went very wide, and he
shot Aragorn a panicked look. "No! Thorongil, please – please don't! I'm
sorry! I won't do it again!"
"That is what you said last time, my fledgling," Aragorn
said, managing – with an effort – to harden his heart to the child's pleading.
"And yet you ignored my warning, and you disobeyed again. I told you what
the consequences would be, and I do not go back on my word. I am going to spank
you, little one."
"But I'm sorry!" Boromir wailed pitifully, sounding as if he
would burst into tears at any moment. "Please, Th'rongil, please! I won't
do it again, I promise! Please don't!"
Forcing himself not to be swayed, Aragorn leaned forward and cupped
Boromir's cheek in his hand, looking into the child's frightened eyes. He kept
his voice low, wanting to be firm but still reassuring. "Boromir. What did
I say about going into the City by yourself?"
Boromir stared at him pleadingly, and Aragorn tapped the boy's cheek
with a finger, raising an eyebrow. "An answer, little one. What did I
say?"
A pause, and then Boromir said miserably, "You said I
sh-shouldn't."
"That is correct. And you disobeyed me today, did you not?"
Boromir's lower lip trembled, and the tears standing in his eyes began
to spill down his cheeks. "Y-yes."
Aragorn nodded gravely. "Yes. And what did I say I would do if you
disobeyed like that again?"
"You said you'd – spank me," Boromir said tearfully, his grey
eyes fixed miserably on Aragorn's face. It took almost everything Aragorn had
to remain stern under that pitiful gaze, and he spared a moment to wonder if it
had been this hard for Elrond to spank him when he was a child. It had
certainly never seemed hard for him – but then, Elrond had had three children
of his own, plus several thousand years of experience before Aragorn had come
along. Surely this sort of thing got easier with time?
He looked down then, into Boromir's tear-filled eyes, and wondered who
he thought he was fooling. Knowing his foster father for the kind and
compassionate elf he was, Aragorn realised that Elrond had probably found it
just this difficult, every single time.
But Ada did what he had to,
because he knew it was necessary, he thought, knowing it was the truth. He had
needed discipline, just like any child, and Elrond had given it to him, while
still letting him know that he was loved. Now, he had to do the same for
Boromir.
"Aye, that is what I said," he agreed now, quietly. "And
you knew that when you chose to disobey. You are going to be spanked, little fledgling. But," he added more
gently, seeing Boromir's face crumple anew, "there is no need to be so
frightened."
He moved his hand up from Boromir's cheek, to stroke the tousled hair.
"You need never fear me, Boromir," he said, looking deeply into the
child's eyes. "I will never harm you. What I do now, I do for your own
good, because you must learn that actions have consequences. I do not do it to
hurt you, but to teach you, because I want to see you grow up as a man of
honour. It was done for me, and I would do the same for you. Do you understand
what I am saying?"
Boromir was still tearful, but he was listening closely, and his panic
had subsided again. "Yes," he said in a small voice, only to add
pleadingly, "But Thorongil, I don't want
to be spanked."
"I know, little one," Aragorn said gently. "It will not
be fun. But it will be over soon, and you will have learned a lesson, and your
disobedience will be forgiven and forgotten. You know that you were naughty.
Now it is time for you to own up to that naughtiness, to take your spanking,
and to learn how to do better next time. Do you think you can do that, my brave
little fledgling?"
Boromir bit his lip, still looking very apprehensive, but after a
moment he gave Aragorn a hesitant nod. "Yes, Thorongil," he said
softly. "I can be brave."
Aragorn nodded his approval, feeling a surge of pride at the little
boy's courage. "I know you can, dear one," he said. "Now, come,
let us have this over with."
He kept his eyes locked with Boromir's for a long moment, making sure
that the child was not going to panic again, before he reached out and gently
lifted him up, settling him easily into place over his lap. Boromir did not
resist, but he squirmed a little as Aragorn manoeuvred him into a more secure
position, and Aragorn put a hand on his back in reassurance.
"There, little one," he murmured. "Be brave now. I am
here with you."
Boromir stilled again, and Aragorn decided to get the next part over
with quickly. He flipped up the back of the child's shirt and gently but
efficiently tugged the little breeches down, leaving them bunched around
Boromir's knees. This time Boromir let out a soft whimper and wriggled more
energetically, and Aragorn pulled him closer, tucking an arm securely around
the child's small waist.
He could feel Boromir trembling against him, and he rested his free
hand on the small of the boy's back, rubbing gently. He knew Boromir was
frightened, and he did not want to drag this out, but he did intend to give a
last explanation of what the discipline was for, just as Elrond had always done
for him. It was important that Boromir understand exactly why he was being
spanked – and hopefully, the sound of Aragorn's voice would help to ease his
fear a little.
"All right, my little fledgling," he said, keeping his voice
gentle, but allowing a hint of sternness to return to it. "You are going
to be spanked now, because you disobeyed the rules. You know that you are not
allowed to go into the City by yourself. It was very naughty of you to disobey
like that. Do you understand, little one?"
There was a pause, and then a very small, trembling voice answered,
"Yes, Thorongil."
"Good," Aragorn said quietly. "The rules are there to
keep you safe, little one, and you must learn to obey them. I am going to spank
you to help you remember to obey from now on."
With that, he turned his attention to the small bare bottom in his lap
– but despite his firm words, he suddenly felt a moment of real uncertainty
over whether he would be able to go through with it. Those trembling little
cheeks looked so helpless, so vulnerable . . . ai, he had never had to spank a child before!
On those occasions when he'd had to mete out discipline, the recipient
had always been an adult; young, perhaps, but still considerably older than the
little one in his lap. Until this moment, he had not fully realised what a
difference it would make, how hard it
would be. Could he really bring himself to spank his little fledgling? Could he
bear to make the child cry, as that soft little bottom reddened under his hand?
Could he bring himself to actually hurt
Boromir?
I do not do it to hurt him, he reminded
himself firmly. I do it because he needs it.
It was the truth, he knew. Boromir did
need this. Aragorn knew from his own childhood – and after – how important the
ritual of discipline and forgiveness was, how healing it was. His fledgling had been deprived of that comfort up
until now; Denethor's punishments offered nothing of forgiveness, nor of
healing. But Aragorn would not see that lack continue, not while he could do
something to prevent it. No matter how hard this was for him to do, it
nevertheless had to be done.
Steeling himself, he gently rested his hand on Boromir's bottom,
covering it easily. He felt the little cheeks tense under his hand, and his
resolve wavered again, but only for a moment. A firm reminder to himself that
he was doing the right thing was all it took, and then he lifted his hand,
bringing it down firmly across Boromir's bottom.
The swat was not hard, but it was certainly sharp enough to sting, and
Boromir jumped as it landed, his head jerking up in shock. Given that the boy
had never been spanked before, Aragorn was expecting a noisy reaction, and was
rather surprised when all he got was a gasp. Either Boromir was trying very
hard to be brave, or he was simply too shocked by the sting to react right
away. Whichever it might be, though, Aragorn highly doubted that he would be
silent for long.
He raised his hand again, seeing the pink flush he had left behind on
the small bare cheeks, and feeling a moment of grief that he would have to add
to it. But he was resolved, and he did not let himself pause longer than a
moment before administering the second sharp swat. He had already decided on
ten in total, which was about what Elrond would have given him at that age. Ten
swats might not sound like much, but with such a little one, he knew it would
be enough to make his point.
Easily enough, he thought
wryly. He could still remember his
reaction to ten swats, when he had been Boromir's age. No matter how hard he
had tried to be stoic – and he had tried, every time – he had invariably been
wailing pitifully by the time the spanking was over. Oh yes, ten swats from
Elrond had certainly been enough to make a point!
That said, however, it seemed that Boromir was trying just as hard to
be stoic as he himself always had. The boy gasped again at the second swat,
wriggling a little under Aragorn's arm, but he still did not cry out. The third
swat elicited much the same reaction; the gasp was louder and the squirming a little
more energetic, but apart from that, Boromir was showing a level of stoicism
that Aragorn found quite surprising.
He was not spanking overly hard – he had, of course, been carefully
moderating the force of his swats – but he knew that the child's bottom had to
be stinging. The little cheeks were already a rosy pink, and the way Boromir
was wriggling told him that it was certainly uncomfortable. And yet, his
stubborn little fledgling had not even let out a whimper.
He brought his hand down again, slightly harder this time – and this
time Boromir did whimper, a tiny,
choked off sound of distress that made Aragorn's heart contract painfully. Ai,
but that sound had been so small and desperate, so . . . stifled. Yes, that was
it – stifled. As if it was taking
everything Boromir had not to cry out, as he desperately tried to endure his
discipline bravely.
Aye, that is it, Aragorn realised
suddenly. He is trying to be brave for
me, trying to impress me with his fortitude. He so craves my approval . . .
likely he thinks I will disapprove if he makes a fuss. And I said myself he
should be brave; he had no way of knowing what was meant by that.
Not wanting any such misunderstanding to continue, he stopped and
rested his hand on Boromir's bottom, feeling the heat there, as well as the
tension in the small body.
"Boromir," he said quietly. "Little one, hear me. It is
all right to cry if you need to. You do not need to hide your tears from
me."
There was a long pause, then a soft sniffle, and a tearful little voice
said, "But – but you – you t-told me to be b-brave, Th'rongil."
Aragorn sighed inwardly. As he had thought, his words had been
misinterpreted. That would have to be remedied at once – and, he thought, he
had best be more careful in the future. Boromir's discipline up until now had
been erratic, but what there was of it had been much harsher emotionally than
anything Aragorn would mete out to him. It would undoubtedly take time for the
boy to get used to the difference.
"Aye, that I did," he said now, gently. "And you are being brave, dear one. You are
taking your spanking, and facing up to the consequences of being so naughty.
But you do not have to do so silently. Let your tears come. They are part of
the discipline, part of the healing. And I promise, I will think no less of you
for them."
Another pause, as if Boromir was thinking about that, and then he asked
tremulously, "D-did you cry? When – when you g-got sp-spanked?"
Aragorn couldn't help but smile, touched all over again by Boromir's
obvious desire to impress him, to emulate him. "Every single time,"
he assured the child quietly.
He felt some of the tension drain out of Boromir's body then, and the
child sniffled again, louder this time. A moment later Aragorn felt him reach
down, and then a small arm wrapped itself around his leg, just below the knee.
"I'm r-ready, Th'rongil," came the little voice from his lap,
and Aragorn felt such a surge of pride that he could scarcely contain it.
"My dear little fledgling," he said, his voice soft with affection.
"You are so brave."
Steeling himself all over again, he patted Boromir's bottom in warning
and then lifted his hand again, bringing it down firmly across both bare
cheeks. This time, to his relief, the reaction was far more typical of the
child Boromir was – he squealed and bounced over Aragorn's lap, kicking both
small feet in the air.
"Owwww! Hurts, Th'rongil!"
"I know it does, little one," Aragorn murmured. Forcing
himself to remain stern, he swatted again, the spank just as sharp as the previous
ones had been. Boromir cried out shrilly, a tearful wail of childish protest,
and squirmed energetically over Aragorn's lap, both feet kicking up once again.
Given how distressed he sounded, Aragorn knew that real tears were probably not
far away.
So much the better, he thought, even
as he silently grieved at the thought of making Boromir cry. He needs the release, and the comfort
afterwards, just as much as the discipline.
With that in mind, he made the seventh swat just that little bit
sharper, snapping his wrist as he brought his hand down, knowing that the
action would worsen the sting. He was not surprised when Boromir jumped hard at
the impact and let out a miserable wail, kicking wildly at the air for a moment
before abruptly giving way to tears.
"Aye, little one," Aragorn encouraged, trying hard to ignore
the way the sobs tore at his heart. "That is the way. Let it out."
And Boromir did. His cries rose in pitch and volume with the next swat,
his earlier stoicism now completely abandoned. Indeed, as the last two swats
were administered, he reacted the way any child being soundly spanked would,
the way Aragorn remembered doing himself over Elrond's lap all those years ago
– a pitiful wail with each spank, and a background of staccato, convulsive
sobs.
Coming from his little fledgling, those sobs were simply too
heartrending for Aragorn to bear. His usual procedure when meting out
discipline was to let his penitent stay across his lap for a time after the
spanking was over, murmuring words of reassurance, but allowing his charge some
time to catch their breath and relax again under his touch, before offering
closer comfort. On this occasion, however, he found he simply could not bear to
go another moment without gathering Boromir into his arms. Once the last swat
had been administered, he paused for barely a moment before lifting the child
up off his lap and into a comforting embrace, holding him tenderly against his
chest. Boromir promptly flung both arms around his neck, clinging to him desperately
and sobbing into his shoulder, and Aragorn rubbed his back soothingly, crooning
a gentle litany of reassurance to him.
"Shhhh, little fledgling," he murmured. "There, hush
now, it is all over. You were so brave, dear one. Shhhh, you are safe. I am here
with you, and all is forgiven. My dear, brave little fledgling."
He spoke on and on, murmuring nonsense words of comfort as Boromir
sobbed against his neck, hot tears trickling down to wet the collar of his
shirt. The small body trembled in his arms, narrow shoulders heaving with each
convulsive sob, but Aragorn kept up his litany of comfort, rocking Boromir in
his arms and rubbing his back in small, soothing circles, all the time feeling
a tenderness that threatened to overwhelm him.
The rush of feeling was not unfamiliar to him. He always offered
comfort after meting out discipline, and he always found the giving of that
comfort to be a uniquely satisfying experience. It felt good to be the
protector, to be able to provide what had been given to him so many times
before. He knew how much that consolation meant after a spanking, how healing
it was to the recipient, and he had found that it was equally healing from the
other side, the tenderness and sheer intimacy of it stealing his breath. Aye,
the role of comforter was one that he had treasured from the first.
But this time, it was somehow different, somehow . . . more. Aragorn could only think that
perhaps it was because Boromir was so very young. He felt more fiercely
protective and somehow more proprietary than he had on previous occasions, a
part of his mind proclaiming loudly that this was his little fledgling, his to love and discipline and comfort. Such
possessiveness was surely ill-advised, given his circumstances – but his
feelings could not be denied, no matter how ill-advised they might be. Right
now, they were staggering in their intensity, and he was unsurprised to feel
his own eyes sting with tears.
My little fledgling, he thought
fervently, cuddling Boromir more tightly against his chest. Not mine by blood, but mine nonetheless. And
I would do anything to keep you safe.
Closing his eyes against the tears, he continued to rock Boromir in his
arms, murmuring words of reassurance and gentle praise as the child slowly
began to quiet. It took some time, as upset as Boromir was, but little by
little the convulsive sobs subsided, first into hiccups and hitching breaths,
and then into sniffling. Finally he was quiet, lying limply in Aragorn's arms,
only the occasional sniff attesting to his earlier distress.
No doubt Boromir was exhausted from his tears, but Aragorn did not want
to let him sleep just yet. First, he wanted to make sure that the child truly
understood, not only why he had been disciplined, but also that Aragorn's
affection for him had not changed.
With that in mind, he smoothed a hand over Boromir's hair, following it
up with a gentle kiss to the top of his head. "How is my fledgling?"
he asked quietly, his voice warm with affection.
There was a long pause, and then Boromir slowly lifted his head,
another soft sniffle escaping him as he sat up. After a moment he cautiously
pulled back out of the hug, only to wince and squeak as his weight settled onto
his bottom. He tried to wriggle backwards on Aragorn's lap, but Aragorn quickly
lifted him up, shifting him forward instead so that Boromir ended up sitting on
one of his thighs, the sore little bottom dipping between his spread legs.
"Better?" he asked kindly.
Boromir nodded, although there was a definite pout forming on his face.
"My bottom hurts," he said plaintively, looking up at Aragorn with
teary, red-rimmed eyes.
His expression was so woebegone that Aragorn could not help but smile,
albeit with sympathy. "Aye, it will sting for a time," he said,
tracing a finger down Boromir's tearstained cheek. "But it will not last
long. You will likely need to sleep on your stomach tonight, but in the morning
you will feel much better."
He stroked the boy's face again, pausing for a moment on the protruding
lower lip before cupping Boromir's cheek in his hand. "I am so glad you
are safe, little fledgling."
His words were soft but emphatic, his relief that his little charge was
unharmed coming through clearly in his tone. He knew enough of Boromir to know
that it would not go unnoticed, and sure enough the child was gazing up at him,
the pout gone, his small face suddenly very solemn.
"Andor said . . . he said that you were worried about me," he
said softly, watching Aragorn with serious grey eyes.
Aragorn nodded slowly, meeting the boy's gaze with equal solemnity.
"I was worried, little one. You were gone for a long time, and Minas
Tirith is a big place. I had begun to fear that something might have happened
to you."
Boromir's eyes darkened, and he bit his lip, his distress obvious.
"I'm sorry, Thorongil!" he burst out, looking earnestly up at
Aragorn. "I didn't mean to stay away so long, I really didn't!"
Aragorn put a gentle hand on the boy's shoulder, trying to offer
reassurance. The discipline was over; there was no need for Boromir to upset
himself all over again. "Aye, I know," he soothed, keeping his tone
warm and understanding. "You were frightened. I understand, little one. It
is all over now; there is no need to fret."
But Boromir only shook his head, his eyes welling with fresh tears.
"I wanted to come home," he said pleadingly, as if Aragorn had not
spoken. "I really did, I didn't want to be afraid, but I c-couldn't help
it. But then it was getting dark, and I was hungry, and I knew Ivoren would be
w-worried about me, so I came back up. And then Andor was on the gate, and he
pinched my ear, and he s-said that
you'd been looking for me, you and Damrod, and that you were w-worried
too."
The words had come out in a rush, and now Boromir's chin began to
quiver, the tears suddenly spilling over. A moment later he leaned forward and
pressed his face against Aragorn's chest, wrapping both arms tightly around
him.
"I didn't mean to make you worry. I really, really didn't,"
he said, his voice small and very sad. "Sorry, Th'rongil, biggest
sorry."
Aragorn closed his eyes for a long moment, the guilt and grief in that
soft, childish apology twisting painfully at his heart. Boromir was so
well-spoken for a four-year-old that he usually sounded older, but right now he
just sounded like what he was – a very small boy who deeply dreaded his new
hero's disapproval, and who simply did not seem to realise that he had already
been forgiven.
Although given the way Denethor treats him, that is
hardly surprising, Aragorn thought grimly. Grief tightened his throat for a
moment, and he folded his arms around Boromir, hugging the child close to him. I must make it clear to him that I will not
treat him thus – will never treat
him thus.
And, echoing his earlier thoughts: I
must show him that my affection, at least, does not come at a price.
Opening his eyes again, he stroked a hand over Boromir's hair, carding
his fingers through the soft strands. "Boromir," he said gently.
"Little one, look at me."
A pause, and then Boromir slowly pulled away, looking up at him
sorrowfully. His eyes were brimming full, his face flushed and wet with tears.
His nose had started to run, and after a moment he snuffled wetly and ducked
his head, lifting one small hand to wipe his face.
Aragorn caught the hand gently in his before it could reach its target,
and reached into a pocket of his coat for a handkerchief. He tilted the boy's
chin up with a finger and held the square of linen to his nose.
"Blow," he ordered kindly, a rush of tenderness welling up as
he recalled Elrond doing the same for him.
Boromir obeyed, still watching him with teary eyes, and Aragorn
tenderly wiped the child's face before putting the handkerchief to one side.
Turning back, he lifted a hand to cup Boromir's cheek, settling the other on
one small shoulder.
"Do you remember what I said before I spanked you, Boromir?"
he asked, looking into the sad grey eyes. "Do you remember that I said
when it was over, your disobedience would be forgiven and forgotten?"
Boromir gulped and nodded, biting his lip. "Y-yes," he
faltered. "But . . ."
"No," Aragorn gently interrupted him. "No buts, dear
one. You have taken your spanking, and bravely too. You have apologised and I
have accepted. Your discipline is over, and all
is forgiven."
Boromir's forehead creased, as if such a thing was simply beyond his
understanding, and Aragorn could not help but feel another surge of bitterness
towards Denethor. He quickly forced it down, knowing that above all, Boromir
should not see anger in him at this moment. Denethor's behaviour was not
something he could change; all he could do was try to show Boromir that
Denethor's was not the only way.
"All is forgiven, my fledgling," he said again, knowing that
Boromir needed to hear it. "You misbehaved, you have been disciplined, and
now it is over. I know this is not what you are used to, but from now on, this
is what you can expect from me." He leaned down and pressed a kiss onto
Boromir's forehead, his voice softening as he said it one more time, murmuring
the words into the child's hair. "All
is forgiven."
A beat, and then he pulled back, looking down into Boromir's flushed
face. To his relief, there was hope dawning there now – the same tentative hope
Aragorn had seen earlier, when he had told the boy that he could never be disappointed
in him. He purposely did not rush things, simply holding Boromir's gaze and
letting him come to his own conclusions, and was rewarded when the frown
finally began to smooth out.
"Really?" Boromir questioned softly, his eyes never leaving
Aragorn's face. "You're – you're really not angry with me?"
"I am really not angry with you," Aragorn assured him, his
voice gentle. "Nor was I angry with you before. I was displeased with what
you did, but my feelings for you did
not change. And I did not spank you because I was angry with you. I spanked you
to teach you, because you must learn to obey the rules – and because I care for
you, Boromir."
He stroked his thumb along the child's cheek, looking gravely into the
tear-bright eyes. "We have not known each other long, but you have found a
place in my heart, little fledgling. I care for you very deeply, and I would
grieve just as deeply if something were to happen to you. I was worried about you today – but that
worry only sprang from love." His other hand lifted to tap the boy's nose
affectionately. "Do you understand what I am saying?"
There was a moment of hesitation, and then Boromir nodded slowly, his
hopeful look giving way first to surprise and then to a tentative smile.
"You're saying that – that you love me," he said softly.
"Aye, dear one," Aragorn agreed, returning the smile. "I
love you."
He leaned down to kiss the boy's forehead again, only to have Boromir
wrap both arms around his neck, hugging him tightly. "I love you too,
Th'rongil," the little voice whispered earnestly in his ear, and Aragorn
felt soft lips press against his cheek, a childish kiss followed by an even
tighter hug.
He closed his eyes again, folding his arms around Boromir, feeling
tears prick sharply behind his eyelids. It did not seem possible, that he could
love this child so much after such a short time – and yet there it was, that
unimagined tenderness flooding his chest with a sweet, liquid warmth, the mark
of love within his skin, almost stealing his breath with its intensity. It did
not need to be explained or understood; it simply was.
My little fledgling, he thought
fervently, his lips moving silently in time with the words. My little fledgling. I would do anything to
keep you safe.
He let the world fall away, focusing simply on the warm little body in
his arms, and they sat like that for long minutes, the silence broken only by
the soft sound of their breathing. Boromir was very still, and Aragorn had just
begun to wonder if the child had fallen asleep when a small voice finally broke
the silence.
"Thorongil?"
Aragorn pulled back so that he could see the child's face, smiling as
Boromir blinked up at him sleepily. "Aye, little one?"
"I'm hungry."
Boromir's tone was plaintive, and Aragorn chuckled, dropping another fond
kiss on the child's forehead. "I am not surprised, seeing as you missed
supper this evening," he said, then added with mock severity,
"Although you ought to be sent to bed without any, after such
behaviour."
He winked at the boy, making sure that Boromir knew he was not in
earnest, and was rewarded with a shy little grin.
"But I would not send my young warrior to bed on an empty
stomach," he went on, returning Boromir's smile. "After all, you will
need your energy for our lesson tomorrow."
Boromir sat up straighter at that, his eyes widening. "Our
lesson?" he asked hopefully, and Aragorn nodded.
"Aye, our lesson. We have some sparring to do, and I have some new
tricks I wish to teach you, if you would like."
His smile widened as Boromir's face lit up. Even with his tearstained
cheeks and reddened eyes, the little boy's smile was beautiful.
"Yes, please!" he said eagerly. "Thank you,
Thorongil!"
"You are most welcome, little one," Aragorn said. "Now,
what do you say we call for some supper for you?"
Boromir answered with a vigorous nod, and Aragorn chuckled, lifting the
child gently off his lap onto the floor. He made sure Boromir was steady on his
feet, then leaned over to help him with his breeches, which were still bunched
around his knees.
"We had better get these back up," he said kindly, and
Boromir stood obediently still while his breeches were eased back into place,
although he winced and bit his lip when they slid over his bottom. Aragorn
patted him on the shoulder, giving him a sympathetic smile.
"All done," he said. "Now, let me see about
supper."
He rose to his feet and went to call for a servant, and was touched
when Boromir shadowed him to the door, clearly wanting to stay close to him.
Ivoren appeared quickly in response to the call, and she greeted
Aragorn with a quick curtsey, although her eyes immediately went to Boromir.
She smiled in relief at the sight of him, and Aragorn had the feeling that she
had been concerned not only about Boromir's disappearance, but also about whatever
discipline Aragorn had intended for the boy. He could hardly blame her, he
thought. As Boromir's primary caretaker, she had doubtless seen the results of
Denethor's discipline, and had most likely been the one to do the comforting
afterwards.
Boromir smiled shyly back at her, and Aragorn was pleased to see that
he apologised without being prompted, telling Ivoren earnestly that he was
sorry he had worried her. She immediately knelt to hug him, forgiving him and
scolding him in the same breath, and held him for a long moment before letting
go.
"You must be hungry; you have had no supper," she said
kindly, rising to her feet. "I will bring something for you – with your
permission, my lord?" she added, turning to Aragorn.
"Aye, that would be a kindness," Aragorn said with a smile.
"We cannot have a young warrior going to bed hungry."
"No indeed, my lord," Ivoren agreed, and Aragorn could see
the relief in her face at his easy manner. "I will go straight to the
kitchens now, and bring supper for you both."
Aragorn nodded his thanks, and Ivoren vanished out the door, closing it
behind her. Once she had gone, he smiled down at Boromir, who was still
standing close beside him. "Come and sit with me, little one."
He walked back over to the window seat and lowered himself onto it, and
Boromir followed him readily enough, although he hesitated over actually
sitting down. He directed an appealing glance up at Aragorn, clearly
apprehensive about the idea, and Aragorn grinned and lifted the child into his
lap, once again positioning him so that there was no pressure on his bottom.
"Is your bottom very sore, little fledgling?" he asked
kindly, once he had the child situated.
Boromir nodded. "Being spanked hurts," he said solemnly,
leaning his head against Aragorn's chest.
"Aye, it does," Aragorn agreed, wrapping an arm around the
small shoulders. "But I think you have learned a lesson from it, have you
not?"
Boromir nodded against his chest. "I won't sneak away again,
Thorongil. I promise."
"That is good to hear, dear one." Aragorn lifted a hand to
smooth the child's hair, enjoying the softness of it beneath his fingers.
"And so, the spanking has fulfilled its intended purpose. Aye, your bottom
will be sore for a little while, but you have learned from it. And you
understand that you have been forgiven now, do you not?"
"Yes. Once the spanking's over, then you forgive me," Boromir
recited obediently. He cuddled closer, wrapping his arms around Aragorn's
chest, and Aragorn smiled down at him tenderly.
"Aye, that is correct," he agreed, his voice soft. "All
is forgiven."
Boromir snuggled even closer to him on hearing that, and Aragorn folded
his arms around the boy, thinking to himself that Boromir had in truth learned
more than one lesson from his first spanking. He had learned the obvious
lessons, of course; that he ought not to sneak away, and more generally that he
ought not to disobey the rules laid down for his protection. He had also
learned that Captain Thorongil did not renege on his promises, and that the boundaries
that were set for him would indeed be enforced. But, more importantly, Boromir
had also learned today that there were other methods of discipline apart from
those his father used – methods that did not shame him, that did not make him
feel unloved or leave him to suffer his guilt. He had learned that discipline
could be meted out with love and kindness rather than with anger, and with the
desire to correct and teach rather than punish. And while those lessons might
be too subtle for such a young child to truly comprehend, Aragorn knew in his
heart that on some level, Boromir would understand the difference, and remember
it.
I can only hope that it
makes up at least in part for Denethor's treatment of him, he thought with
a sigh.
He took a breath, forcibly pushing thoughts of Denethor away. They
would only serve to raise his ire against the man – ire which he had already
determined would not help Boromir, and so was useless to dwell on, no matter
how justified it might be. Instead, he closed his eyes and purposely quieted
his mind, concentrating only on the moment, on the feel of Boromir cuddled
against his chest and the soft sound of the child's breathing. Boromir, for his
part, seemed perfectly content where he was, and they sat peacefully for some
time before Aragorn finally felt him stir and shift.
"Thorongil?" the small voice asked, and Aragorn opened his
eyes, looking down into the upturned little face.
"Aye, little one?"
"Can you stay and give me my bath tonight?"
Boromir was gazing at him hopefully, and Aragorn wondered at the
request for only a moment before the answer came to him. Bath time would of
course reveal a rather pink little bottom, and childish dignity would probably
insist on as few witnesses as possible to that telltale glow.
"Are you embarrassed about your spanking, my fledgling?" he
asked now, giving the boy a gentle smile.
Boromir's cheeks were slightly pink, but he answered with endearing
dignity. "A little bit. But mostly I just want you to do it. Will you,
Thorongil? Please?"
Aragorn nodded, touched once again by Boromir's obvious desire to stay
close to him. "Aye, I will give you your bath," he said kindly.
"And I think you will find that it will make your sore bottom feel much
better. I know it always worked for me," he added with a wink.
Boromir's eyes lit up with interest, and he gave Aragorn a faintly
mischievous look. "Will you tell me a story about when you got
spanked?" he asked hopefully.
Aragorn chuckled. He supposed he should have expected such a request to
crop up sooner or later. As a child, he had never quite dared to ask Elrond
such a thing, but he had certainly asked Elladan and Elrohir, and they had
usually been happy to oblige. Estel had loved their stories of childhood
escapades, in which they would cheerfully describe their various misdeeds and
the predictable retribution that had followed. It had always made him feel
better after he had been spanked, to know that his big, brave, warrior brothers
had also been on the receiving end of such discipline.
He grinned, a memory surfacing of Elrond frowning when he had caught
them at it, telling the twins with mock sternness that they ought not to
encourage their brother into mischief.
"We are not encouraging
him, Ada!" Elladan had replied. "We are
discouraging him! We tell him all about how hard you spanked us
afterwards."
"And besides," Elrohir added
impishly, "Estel does not need to
repeat our mischief. He is quite capable of thinking up his own!"
"I think a story could be arranged," he said now, turning his
smile on Boromir. "If, that is, you behave well during your bath, and do
not get me too wet."
"I won't get you wet!" Boromir assured him. "I won't
splash, I promise."
"Ah, now, it would be no fun if you did not splash a little,"
Aragorn said, giving the boy a conspiratorial smile. "I would just prefer
that you were the one having the bath, and not me. Agreed?"
Boromir nodded, smiling back at him, and Aragorn regarded him fondly
for a moment, pleased to see that the child seemed to be recovering his
equilibrium. Considering how distressed Boromir had been earlier, he now seemed
to be bouncing back from his first spanking with impressive resilience.
Although in truth, Aragorn thought, he would have expected no less from his
brave little fledgling.
Rather to his relief, he also could not detect any resentment over the
discipline. Quite the contrary, in fact; it only seemed to have strengthened
Boromir's attachment to him, if the boy's obvious desire to be close to him was
any indication.
But then, I always wanted to
stay close to Ada, afterwards, he thought, remembering his own reluctance
as a child to leave Elrond's side after being spanked. As much as he had
disliked the spanking itself, he had always loved the comfort that followed it.
He could still recall sitting on Elrond's lap, held in his ada's strong arms,
feeling so safe, and loved, and never wanting it to end. And Elrond had
understood, he knew. The elf lord had let him stay close for as long as he
needed to, never sending him away before he was ready to go.
Ada would let me be his
assistant, he recalled fondly, remembering how Elrond had found ways to keep him
entertained while still letting him stay nearby. We would read together and he would ask me questions, or he would let
me pass him things while he was working with his healing medicines. I was so
proud that he would let me help with something so important.
He smiled at the memory. Aye, he too had needed that continued
closeness after a spanking – and he had been accustomed to that form of
discipline, to feeling loved and safe and forgiven. For Boromir, this was
entirely unfamiliar, a far and welcome cry from his father's cold, dismissive
punishments. He was not used to discipline being a healing experience, or a
loving one. And given how starved for attention he already was, it was hardly
surprising that he wanted to stay close to Aragorn now.
After all, Aragorn mused
grimly, I am giving him something he has
never had.
He pushed aside his grief at that thought, letting determination settle
in its place, crystallising hard and fierce within his mind. Boromir might not
have had that comfort up until now, but he would
have it from now on.
For as long as I can give it
to him, Aragorn vowed silently.
A knock came on the door then, interrupting his thoughts. He dutifully
called out, "Come!" and the door opened to reveal Ivoren and another
woman, carrying trays of food and drink. They both greeted Aragorn politely,
then began arranging things on the table, swiftly setting two places and leaving
the trays of food in the middle.
As they finished,
"If you would like to call me when you are finished, my lord, I will
come back and give Boromir his bath, and then get him into bed." She
smiled, somewhat wryly. "He has had a long day today."
Boromir immediately spoke up before Aragorn could answer, shaking his
head. "Thorongil's going to give me my bath tonight, Ivoren," he
said. "I asked and he said yes. Didn't you, Thorongil?" he added,
glancing up at Aragorn hopefully.
Aragorn caught the touch of anxiety in the child's voice, and gave him
a reassuring smile. "Aye, little one, I did. I will deal with his bath
tonight, mistress," he added to Ivoren. "You can leave him with me; I
will get him settled in bed before I go."
"As you wish, my lord," Ivoren said. She sounded a little
surprised, but certainly not displeased, and Aragorn got the impression that as
long as his presence was making Boromir happy, she would wholeheartedly approve
of it.
"Everything is prepared in the bathing chamber when you are
ready," Ivoren went on. "There is plenty of water in the boiler, and
fresh towels. I will leave you to your supper, and send someone back to tidy up
when you have finished."
Aragorn nodded and thanked her, and Boromir gave her a beaming smile,
which was fondly returned. "Goodnight, Ivoren," he said. "Sweet
dreams."
"And to you, love," Ivoren replied with a laugh, bending down
to kiss the child's cheek and pull him into a brief, warm hug. "I will see
you in the morning. Goodnight, my lord," she added to Aragorn as she
straightened up, and gave him a quick curtsey, which he replied to with a nod
and a smile. She crossed to the door and slipped out, closing it quietly behind
her, and Aragorn turned a fond look on Boromir.
"Time for supper, I think," he said, and Boromir nodded
eagerly, although a moment later a frown crossed his face as he regarded his
chair. It was padded, but not overly so, and Aragorn could imagine that it must
look quite hard indeed to Boromir at the moment, given how tender his bottom
must be. He couldn't help but smile at the child's apprehensive look, a smile
which became a full-fledged grin when Boromir reached back to tentatively rub
his bottom, as if to test just how sore it was and whether sitting down was
really feasible.
"I would advise using the pillows from your bed," he said
kindly. "If you really cannot sit, then you can always kneel on them
instead."
Boromir shot him a grateful look and went to get his pillows, piling
two of them onto his chair before very gingerly sitting down on top of them. He
winced a bit when his weight settled onto his bottom, but after a moment or two
of wriggling he apparently found a tolerable position, and met Aragorn's gaze
with a sheepish little smile.
"Eat up, little one," Aragorn said, returning the smile.
"You have had a long day, and you will need your strength for sparring
tomorrow."
Boromir brightened even more at the mention of sparring, giving Aragorn
a much happier grin before obediently turning his attention to the food.
Aragorn did likewise, although he first poured himself a generous cup of wine,
which he rather felt he needed after the events of the day.
They talked a little as they ate, but Aragorn got the impression that
Boromir was rapidly becoming too tired for conversation, and by the time they
had finished their meals he could see that the child was starting to droop with
weariness. He coaxed Boromir to finish the last of his milk, then rose to his
feet and held out a hand to him, smiling.
"Come, little one. We will see about that bath."
Boromir obediently slid off his chair, moving carefully in deference to
his sore bottom, and let Aragorn lead him into the bathing chamber. As Ivoren
had said, there was plenty of hot water in the boiler, and Aragorn busied
himself with the transfer of it into the bathtub. Once that was done, he turned
to help Boromir out of his clothes, leaving the breeches until last. He lowered
them as gently as he could, but Boromir still winced as the fabric slid over
his bottom.
"Still sore?" Aragorn asked, his voice gently teasing, and
when Boromir nodded solemnly he gave the child an indulgent smile. "Well,
let us have a look."
He took Boromir by the shoulders and gently turned him around, casting
his eye over the area in question. The little bottom was still pink, but the
worst of the flush had already faded, and Aragorn knew it would most likely be
gone by the morning. He had not been severe; the spanking had only been enough
to cause a transitory sting.
"That is not so bad," he said, adding quickly, "although
I am sure it feels bad! The bath will help, though, and you will feel much
better in the morning."
He patted the small shoulder kindly, then rolled up his sleeves and
dipped one arm into the water. Reassured that it was not too hot, he gently
lifted the child into the bath, manfully suppressing a smile at the squeak
Boromir let out when the water touched his bottom.
"Give it a moment," Aragorn encouraged. "The water will
help with the sting."
Boromir had scrambled to his knees at once, and now he gave Aragorn a
mournful look, wriggling in obvious discomfort. Aragorn waited patiently, and
as he expected, after a few moments the little boy began to settle down.
Boromir finally sat back on his heels, and Aragorn smoothed a hand over his
hair, giving him a kind smile.
"Is that getting better?" he asked, and received a hesitant
nod in response.
"Yes. It doesn't sting so much now."
He sounded distinctly relieved, and Aragorn nodded in satisfaction.
"Good. Now, let us see about getting you clean, shall we?" He reached
for the soap and washcloth that were sitting by the bath, giving the child a
quick wink. "For I fear that you are very grubby once again."
He tapped Boromir's nose for emphasis, and the little boy grinned at
him, brightening once again. He seemed quite happy to be washed as opposed to
washing himself, so Aragorn soaped up the washcloth and took on the task.
Boromir stayed obligingly still for the most part, although the washing
of small feet brought on a fit of giggles and a fair amount of squirming, not
to mention some splashing. The first time he managed to accidentally splash
Aragorn, Boromir's eyes went very wide, his expression immediately becoming
apprehensive. But Aragorn merely wiped the water off his face and grinned at
him, and the child relaxed and smiled back, one of his beautiful, sunny smiles
that had captivated Aragorn from the start.
He found himself thinking back to his own childhood, remembering that
he too had loved bath time when he was small – especially the part where he
would be able to splash whoever was bathing him, be it his mother or Elrond or
the twins or, on one wonderful occasion, Glorfindel. He could still recall
Elrond's laughter when he came to check up on them, only to find Glorfindel
dripping water all over the floor and Estel near hysterical with giggling.
"It appears you have
won this battle, my son," Elrond had said, arching an amused eyebrow at
the scene. Glorfindel had merely laughed in response and begun rolling up his
wet sleeves.
"He may have won the
battle, but he has not won the war," he replied. "I would advise you to back away now,
my friend, unless you wish to join in."
Elrond's eyebrow had arched even higher at that, but he had wisely fled
the scene, Aragorn recalled with amusement. He also recalled that the splashing
fight that had followed had been wonderful fun, and that he had enjoyed himself
tremendously, especially when Glorfindel had pronounced him the victor.
With that memory in mind, the second time Boromir splashed him – not so
accidentally this time – Aragorn promptly retaliated by splashing back.
Boromir's look of surprise was quickly replaced by delight, and a minor war
immediately ensued, the combatants matching each other splash for splash. By
the time the hostilities finally ceased, Boromir was breathless with giggling,
and Aragorn, also laughing, found himself with a wet shirt and an even wetter
face.
He leaned against the side of the tub, wiping dripping hair out of his
eyes and grinning at the delighted look on Boromir's face. The little boy
appeared to be enjoying himself immensely, and Aragorn was glad to see it,
especially after witnessing his earlier distress. Even at the best of times,
Boromir was often so serious, almost too serious for such a young child. Seeing
his beaming smile now, his pleasure in simple spontaneous fun, made Aragorn
want to hug him.
"I yield, my fledgling," he said now, still chuckling.
"The field of victory is yours. Although I think lake of victory would be
a more apt description."
He winked at the boy, and Boromir replied with another of those
heart-melting smiles. "You're all wet, Thorongil," he observed merrily,
although a moment later he frowned in sudden concern. "Can I still have a
story?" he asked anxiously, clearly worried that he had broken their
agreement about not getting Aragorn 'too wet'.
"Aye, you may still have a story," Aragorn reassured him, his
voice warm. "I was a willing participant in that battle, little one. And
we had fun, did we not?"
Boromir nodded, smiling again, and Aragorn returned it. "Aye, so
we did. You did nothing wrong, my fledgling." He rested a hand on the
child's wet hair, ruffling it gently. "However, we must get you out of
this bath before you can have your story, so let us finish cleaning you up –
before you wrinkle up into a prune!"
He glanced about for the washcloth and soap, and found them both lying
in a puddle beside him. Picking them up, he soaped up the washcloth once more
and gently washed Boromir's face, smiling into the bright grey eyes.
"Close your eyes so I can wash your hair," he said when he
was finished, and Boromir obeyed, tipping his head back obligingly. Aragorn
gently lathered up the boy's hair, taking care not to get soap in his eyes,
then tilted him backwards to rinse him off, supporting him with one arm across
his back. Boromir leaned trustingly against him, allowing Aragorn to move him
as he would, and once his hair was rinsed clean Aragorn sat him up again.
"No soap in your eyes?" he asked when the child opened them,
and Boromir shook his head, beaming at him. The look of adoration on his face
made Aragorn chuckle. Not only, it seemed, was he a great warrior, but he could also wash hair without getting soap in
his victim's eyes, a feat apparently worthy of accolade.
Hair washing over, he decided that Boromir was probably clean enough,
especially since the bath water was now rapidly losing its heat. Not wanting
the child to get cold, Aragorn lifted him out of the tub and set him on his
feet, then glanced around for towels. There was a pile of them to one side, and
he neatly snagged two off the top, wrapping one around Boromir's small
shoulders.
"I think half of your bath has ended up on the floor," he
said wryly as he began towelling the child dry, glancing down at the puddle
Boromir was standing in. Boromir's reply was a grin and a stifled yawn, and
Aragorn smiled.
"Bedtime for you now, I think," he said kindly. "You
have had a very long day."
Boromir didn't protest, which in itself told Aragorn how tired he
really was. The child stood obediently still while he was dried off, although
he let out a little squeak when Aragorn patted the towel across his bottom, and
quickly reached back to rub the affected area.
"Still a bit sore?" Aragorn asked, and when Boromir nodded he
patted the small shoulder in comfort. "It will feel much better in the
morning. Now, let us get you into bed, shall we?"
He swung the child up into his arms, and carried him towel and all back
into the bedchamber, depositing him gently on his bed. A quick search of the
clothes press yielded a nightshirt, and Boromir obligingly held his arms up
while Aragorn tugged it over his head. Retrieving the towel the boy was sitting
on, he tossed it back towards the door to the bathing chamber, then turned down
the covers on the bed.
"In you get, little fledgling," he said, patting the
mattress. Boromir obediently crawled under the covers, and Aragorn tucked them
around him, smiling fondly at the child. "There now. Are you warm
enough?"
Boromir nodded, looking up at him with hopeful eyes. "Will you
tell me a story now?"
"Aye, you may have your story," Aragorn said with a chuckle.
He sat down on the edge of the bed, rubbing his chin thoughtfully. "Let me
see now . . ."
"You said you'd tell me one about when you got spanked,"
Boromir put in pointedly, and Aragorn grinned.
"Aye, so I did," he agreed. "Give me a moment, then, and
I will try to remember a good one."
Boromir fell silent, watching him expectantly, and after a few moments
of thought Aragorn made his decision. The incident where he had got lost in the
woods had been on his mind since yesterday, so it seemed logical to tell that
story, especially since it bore a definite similarity to Boromir's misadventure
today. It had always made him feel better as a child when his brothers told him
about similar mistakes they had made, so hopefully his tale would have the same
effect on Boromir.
He shifted back to lean against the wide wooden headboard, and Boromir
rolled over to face him, propping himself up on one elbow to listen. Aragorn
smiled down at the expectant little face and began his tale, describing that
day all those years ago when he had been five years old, and bored, and had
wandered off alone into the woods surrounding his home, something that was most
emphatically forbidden.
He did not give details about exactly where that home was, of course,
nor did he give any names. He also did not bother to explain the distinction
about Elrond being his foster father – it would only have added unnecessary
confusion to the tale, and besides, as far as Aragorn was concerned, the elf
lord was his father, in every way
that mattered. However, he was careful to refer to Elrond as 'my father'
instead of his usual 'Ada', a term which Boromir would probably have
questioned.
Boromir listened raptly as the story unfolded, and Aragorn embellished
the tale somewhat for his benefit, describing his long ago adventures with
dramatic flair. He told the child about how he had wandered lost for what
seemed like hours, and how tired and hungry he had been, and how worried about
being in dreadful trouble when he was found – and then how frightened he had
become as time had gone on and he had not yet been found. He spoke of his relief at finally being rescued, and
the way he had scrambled down from his perch in a tree to fling himself into
Elrond's arms, very grateful to be carried home and tucked safely into bed. And
finally, he related the events of the next morning, when he had been summoned
to Elrond's study to explain himself, only to be given a good spanking when his
explanation had been found unsatisfactory.
"I pleaded with my father that I had not meant to disobey, and
that I had just been bored," he told Boromir, smiling at the child's
obvious fascination. "But alas, he was not swayed. I knew the rules, he
said, and I had broken them, and so I would have to face the consequences. And
so he put me across his knee, and he spanked me – and I am afraid that I did
not take it nearly as bravely as you did, my little fledgling," he added
with a wink. "I made a terrible fuss."
Boromir looked surprised for a moment, and then he grinned.
"Really?"
"Oh, aye. A terrible fuss! Birds took flight outside my father's
window! You could have heard my squalling from a mile away!"
Boromir was giggling now, looking quite delighted. "A mile is a
long way, Thorongil. You're exareggating."
Aragorn laughed out loud, finding both the correction and the childish
mispronunciation to be hugely endearing. "Aye, perhaps I am 'exareggating'
a little," he said with a grin, smoothly repeating Boromir's new word.
"But believe me, I did make a dreadful ruckus. And I did not go into the
woods alone again!"
Boromir's giggles had subsided, and he nodded in understanding.
"So you learned a lesson," he said, and Aragorn smiled to recognise
his own inflection in the words. "Did your father forgive you
afterwards?"
"Aye, he did indeed. As soon as the spanking was over, I was
forgiven, and the slate was clean. That was the way it was always done, with my
father."
"I like that way better," Boromir said simply, and Aragorn
could hear the wealth of longing in his tone. He reached out, stroking the child's
hair, then brushing gentle fingers down his cheek.
"I like that way better too, dear one," he said. "And
that is why I will always do things that way. I cannot speak for anyone but
myself – but you can be sure that whenever I have cause to discipline you, you
will always be forgiven afterwards,
just as you were today." He cupped Boromir's cheek in his hand, saying
gently, "Do you understand?"
Boromir gazed up at him for a long moment, searching Aragorn's face
with serious grey eyes, as if seeking the answer to a question. Aragorn did not
look away, hoping that the child would see that he meant what he said, and at
last Boromir nodded solemnly, apparently satisfied.
"I understand, Thorongil," he said softly.
"Good," Aragorn replied, his voice warm with affection.
"And now, it is time for you to go to sleep. It is well past your bedtime,
and you need your rest."
Boromir was apparently tired enough not to protest, and he obediently
snuggled down under his covers, pulling them up around his chin. Aragorn rose
to his feet and went to blow out the lamps, leaving only the one nearest the
door still lit. Finished, he crossed back over to the bed, smiling fondly down
at Boromir.
"I will see you at your lesson in the morning, little one,"
he said, leaning over to kiss the child on the forehead. Boromir promptly
wrapped both arms around his neck, hugging him tightly and pressing a kiss to
his cheek.
"Good night, Thorongil," he murmured in Aragorn's ear, and
Aragorn gave him a gentle squeeze before pulling away.
"Goodnight, little fledgling," he said warmly. "Sleep
well, and have sweet dreams."
Boromir smiled up at him sleepily, and Aragorn gave him a last loving
look before turning and walking to the door. He opened it, leaving it ajar
while he went to blow out the last lamp, then slipped out into the hall,
closing the door quietly behind him. Suddenly feeling very tired himself, he
made his way to the main entrance, then out into the courtyard beyond, heading
for his own quarters and his bed.
~*~*~*~
As tired as he was, Aragorn had no trouble falling asleep once he
actually went to bed. However, his peaceful night was interrupted when he found
himself starting awake some hours later, not sure of what time it was, but
immediately aware of two salient points – first, it was still full dark
outside, and second, there was someone else in the room with him.
He bolted upright, responding to the possible threat with well-honed
Ranger's instincts, scanning the room for the intruder. Dark as it was outside,
the moon was bright and he had not closed the curtains, which left him easily
enough light to see by. When he actually saw who his visitor was, however, he
could only blink in surprise, finding himself staring into two wide grey eyes.
"Boromir . . . what are you doing in here?" he asked, hearing
his voice come out roughened with sleep. He took in the child's huddled
posture, the tearstains clearly visible on the small face, and his forehead
creased in concern. "What is it, little one?"
"I had a bad dream," Boromir whispered, staring at him
pleadingly. He was standing still beside the bed, his eyes owl-wide in the dim
light of the room, and bright with unshed tears. Aragorn responded
automatically to the appeal in those eyes, holding out his arms to the child.
"Come here," he said gently, and almost before the words were
out of his mouth, Boromir had launched himself up onto the bed, wrapped his
arms around Aragorn's chest and burrowed against him. He was ice-cold – hardly
surprising, since he was barefoot and wearing only a nightshirt – and Aragorn
could feel him trembling, although he was not sure whether it was from cold or
distress or both.
He quickly lay down, tucking the covers around them both, and Boromir
responded by cuddling even closer to him, pressing his face into the hollow of
Aragorn's shoulder. Aragorn rubbed his back soothingly, hushing him, trying to
get the trembling to abate.
"There now, little one," he murmured. "It was just a
dream, nothing more. It is all over now."
Boromir's breath hitched, but some of the tension seemed to leave his
body, as if just hearing the words said out loud was enough to reassure him.
Aragorn kept up his litany, murmuring soft words and rubbing the child's back
in slow, soothing circles, even as he silently wondered at this latest turn of
events.
That Boromir had come looking for comfort was obvious, and perfectly
understandable. But . . . if it was just comfort he had wanted, he could easily
have gone to his nurse, who had her chamber just down the hall from his. Even
if Boromir might rather have had his mother's comfort, Ivoren had looked after
him since he was a baby; she was far more familiar to him than Aragorn was.
That he had chosen to come to Aragorn instead – leaving the Steward's House to
do so, and crossing the courtyard in the dark, when he was already frightened –
spoke volumes about just how attached he had become to his new hero.
He did not just want
comfort, Aragorn thought, vaguely surprised by the proprietary pleasure the
knowledge gave him. He wanted my comfort. He wanted me.
He closed his eyes, the now familiar feeling of tenderness cresting
once again, flooding his chest with gentle warmth. It seemed impossible that
Boromir could have bonded to him so strongly in such a short time, and yet,
that there was a bond between them
was simply undeniable. Aragorn felt it too; as far as he was concerned, he
could not have loved Boromir more if the child had been his own flesh and
blood. He did not know what it meant, he did not know how it had come about –
but as he had realised earlier, it somehow did not need to be explained or understood. It simply was, and there was a
rightness to it that he could not deny.
Swallowing hard against the lump in his throat, he cuddled Boromir
closer, moving a hand up to stroke his hair. The child's trembling had eased,
but he was still cold against Aragorn's side.
"You are a block of ice, little fledgling," Aragorn murmured.
There was a pause, and then Boromir slowly lifted his head, regarding
Aragorn with teary eyes. "It's cold outside," he said in a small
voice.
"I should say it is," Aragorn agreed quietly. He trailed
gentle fingers down Boromir's cheek. "Are you feeling better now?"
Boromir nodded, lifting one small hand to scrub at his drying tears,
and Aragorn covered it with his own.
"Do you remember what you were dreaming about?"
Boromir shook his head. "No – but I woke up scared," he said
softly. "And then I was too afraid to go back to sleep."
"My poor fledgling." Aragorn squeezed the child's hand in
comfort, then went on, purposely lightening his tone. "Well, that will not
do at all. You need your rest if you are going to fight well tomorrow. We will
have to find something that will help you sleep."
Boromir hesitated for a moment, biting his lip, then asked hopefully,
"Could I stay here tonight, Thorongil? Please? I wouldn't be afraid with
you here."
It was Aragorn's turn to hesitate. Logically, he knew that he really
ought to say no. It would not do for Boromir to make a habit of this, and
Aragorn knew he really should take the child back to his own bed, even if he
stayed there with him to keep him company. And yet somehow, looking into those
hopeful grey eyes, 'no' simply would not come.
What harm can there be in
it, really, he thought. He is only a little
boy, and he has had a very difficult day, and now a nightmare. If he needs some
extra comfort tonight, I am not going to deny him.
He was aware in the back of his mind that he was simply trying to
justify to himself what he was about to do, but somehow it just didn't matter,
not when weighed up against Boromir's appealing gaze. The child had indeed had
a very hard day, and his nightmare had clearly upset him a great deal. If it
would give him comfort to stay with Aragorn just this once, then where was the
harm?
Ignoring the feeling of faint foreboding he got about the 'just this
once' part, he gave Boromir a fond smile, his decision made. "Aye, you may
stay here tonight," he said kindly, and any lingering uncertainty he felt
was quickly eased when Boromir wriggled up to kiss his cheek, wrapping both
arms around his neck.
"Thank you, Thorongil," he whispered earnestly, and Aragorn
smiled, hugging the child close.
"You are very welcome," he said. "But keep in mind, you
should probably not make a habit of this. And we will have to get up early in
the morning, so that we can get you home before Ivoren finds you gone and
starts to worry. Agreed?"
"Agreed," Boromir replied, scooting down to rest his head on
Aragorn's shoulder again. Aragorn put an arm around him, nobly ignoring the
very cold little feet that had found his leg.
"Good. Now, it is time for you to go back to sleep. You have had a
long day, and you need your rest – and so do I, if I am to match you
tomorrow." He stroked the child's hair, adding gently, "No more bad
dreams for you tonight."
Boromir lifted his head again, regarding him curiously. "How do
you know?"
"Because I am here, and I shall keep them away," Aragorn
replied simply. "Now come, lie down." He waited until Boromir had
obeyed, and then said, "Close your eyes."
Boromir did, and Aragorn watched him for a moment, his gaze lingering
on the tearstains that marked the flushed cheeks. He was suddenly very glad
indeed that he had let the child stay. Boromir had done more than enough crying
today, and Aragorn silently resolved to make sure that tomorrow gave his
fledgling no cause for tears.
Taking a breath, he began to sing softly, an old song in the elven
tongue that Elrond had often sung to him when he was having trouble sleeping.
Boromir stilled for a moment, seemingly surprised, then he cuddled closer,
letting out a soft sigh of pleasure. One small hand came up to stroke Aragorn's
chest, and it was only a minute or two before Aragorn heard the child's
breathing even out and slow, telling him that his charge had gone back to
sleep.
Not long after that, he was asleep himself.
~*~*~*~
TBC